Fading lights

 
I pump my legs
harder faster
i want them to hurt
slightly intoxicated
somewhat enlightened
i reminisce
i observe places
paths walked
thinking about
conversations had
it was the best time of my life
the happiest too
its over
it is now cemented
as i go down these paths
the more i recollect
the more it hurts
the pain feels like the worst i felt
but its the best
i want it to hurt more
i want it to all stop
i go closer
in to the light
i dont wanna listen
to the same tired words
telling me about my youth
my inexperience
i dont care for any of it
if this is what life turns to
i dont want it
i recollect more
this time
mistakes
i regret every one
i will not lie
i will not act tough
i regret every single mistake i made
since that one faithful date
0 people will understand
2 words i just wanna hear
2 people that i felt were fate
7 lights just keep coming
0 chances ive been told
8 ways i just want to end it all
if only i could go back and change every thing
as i ride further the lights
become larger
i hear a screech
and it all fades to black