Tired of falling

I'm tired if this
I'm just so tired
I'm tired of feeling alone
Feeling sad 
Crying by myself
Holding my self
Feeling like I'm falling falling falling
And no one is there to catch me
Like I'm slowly dying 
Like I should end it quick make it painless 
I remember being happy 
I wish I was happy 
I wish I felt warm
I felt secure I felt important again
I don't know if it will ever come
I wish it could be all simple 
Flip a switch, push a button 
All is fixed 
But it's not 
I know that's too easy
All I want right now is not another go
Another chance 
I want to know that I'm not hated so much that I'm non existent 
That I may be a chance again one day
But right now all I want to be at least is a friend
A friend with benefits would be nice 
But a friend would do just fine
I want a friend to hold me
Tell me it's ok 
To tell me that I'll be happy again
To catch me from falling
I don't want to keep falling 
I fear hitting the ground
And I don't know how much longer I'll be falling